i want you to watch true blood. i want someone else to share my excitement with, haha. i have heard its like twilight for adults. it has similarities, but i liked true blood before i even knew what twilight was. i have watched it from the first episode. it has sex in like every episode though. sometimes i think its a bit much, and thats saying something, since i'm a total perv, haha. its really a great show though, and its suprisingly hilarious. and about rob being in true blood, i think he wouldn't have been the main character. i can't imagine it really. i think twilight opened a lot of doors for him and he is picking wisely. he has two leading roles and another movie where he gets to work with hugh jackman and rachel weisz. i'm so excited for this boy, its like i'm a stage mom, but not, because i also would like a piece of that.

willow sounds so 90's, haha. i think wanda is just the fugliest name. that and like, betty and debbie and barbara, ugh. haha!

yes, there were both characters named lola and avery. i hate that story, its like lingering over my head, haha. i think about it sometimes. idk what to do about it. i almost wrote another chapter like last month, but i only wrote, i think a few paragraphs. i have to re-read the whole thing over to catch myself up, and its like a gazillion pages long. i think i will finish it though. i had such the strangest dream last night, and now i have a fucking idea for like a short film or something, haha. something's wrong with me.

my parents allowed it, only becasue they felt bad for her, mostly my mom. she lived across the street with her mom and sister and my asshole neighbor, who was her mom's boyfriend at the time (they broke up and her and her mom and sister moved away). they were involved in drugs, and he beat her mom, we had to intervene and call the cops a few times. i mean, i literally saw him beating her in the middle of the night on the front lawn. her mom even overdosed once. she was fucked up and my brother hates her now. there's just so many messed up stories i have now because of that girl. i almost kicked her ass once because she started putting pictures of me on her myspace and saying how ugly i was. i was like, what the fuck is that about? especially because i was extremely nice to her and felt for her and let her sleep in my room when her mom was getting her ass whooped. so my mom decided to let her come with us on vacation. it was sort of weird, but like, i didn't even consider them a couple. they were twelve, lol.

<3 Brandy

I think that shows that when it comes to getting to know some people in a certain way it seems like a great thing to do as the person is someone worth knowing, but after getting to close to them someone can learn that really they aren't the right person for them to be with. Its hard though because hardly anyone can read someone accurately from the start, and even if they can they definitely can't predict how things will go. I hope that you've been having a great week so far. Take care and I'll talk to you soon, bye for now.

           Kyle

@bittersweet_vengeance - no need to thank me! I was only speaking the truth! =D 

i hate the events in my life right now. 

true blood isn't over-dramatic. but if you're worried about the vampire thing, well, thats what the whole show is about. haha. i think the show is romantic and suspenseful and also hilarious. the guy who made "six feet under" made this show. i've watched a few episodes of six feet under whenever they showed it on cable, but thats pretty much it. i hope you watch true blood, i want to know what you think. hah.

that dream just sounds creepy! but sort of sweet also? haha. i've had a lot of pregnant dreams, but i think i've had ones where i had a baby, but it was just a regular baby.

you won't believe the shit i dreamed of last night. from what i can recall, somehow i was kidnapped into an alternate universe. sort of like coraline here, but also like invasion of the bodysnatchers. because i was kidnapped by my parents, but they weren't my parents. they had like, aliens inside of them that took over their bodies. and they kept me in this house that looked like one of my aunt's old houses. they kept me in this room and told me i'd never see my real parents again. they gave me all of my stuff though. so i had my cell phone and laptop and everything. i remember just sitting in the room crying and calling out for my mom. it was so depressing and it makes me want to cry when i think about it. my god. i even dialed my home number into my cell phone and my mom picked up after like 5 tries, i almost gave up. i remember crying hysterically and telling my mom i was alright and that i missed her. and i kept asking her to find me and get me back. she didn't say anything but, "it's okay brandy", like over and over. and i was worried that my like "alien parents" would hear me crying over the phone, and just when i was thinking that, a weird male voice was on the other end of the phone, but i don't remember what they said. all i did was hang up the phone, and in the dream i think i realized that it wasn't my real mother who i had just called, but like, the alien one. so i started crying even more. and i was just laying on this bed, and it had a scratchy blanket. i remember missing my house and my family so much, it was so sad. and then the like, alien mother, who looked just like my mom in every single way, came into the room and told me i could never go back. and i woke up after that. isn't that so fucked up and sad? i felt like a lost little kid. ugh.

i would hope that i am as uninteresting and boring as so no one would think of stealing anything of mine that i put onto the internet. i sometimes wonder what that girl is up to now. i don't want to be judgemental, but i think i can see her being knocked up in the near future. haha.

i went to dorney park yesterday. and i am burnt to a crisp and exhausted today. i got home at like 4 or 5 pm and went on the computer for ten minutes before i passed out. i didn't sleep the night before, though i tried. i just woke up at 6:30 this morning after that weird dream. i can't shake that one. its like one of those that cling to you for a while. that and that goddamn skeet ulrich one! i will never forget!

<3 Brandy

@jlhchick1231 - Awe, thank you! You're too sweet.