I still get a little paranoid when I see people visit my site who have no profile picture, no new blog entry, and have joined xanga within the last year. I revel in keeping things from certain people. Perhaps it's a form of insecurity, but I'm confident enough to admit it. A threatening image could easily be altered into something less sinister merely by the other person's judgment and swiftly swayed insecurities. Why allow that to happen when the mere idea of the threat causes you to smile so wickedly? Why make the image that much more easier to live with? Why reveal yourself? Call it power hungry; I like keeping people on their toes. Knockout writer from San Francisco disappears yet again out of your grip. Intimidating woman continues to haunt hearts cross-country. Who
is she?
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I have a picture.
i get the same feelings. how was the doctor visit??
he keeps complaining about how hes been single for 1.5 months. try 19 years lol.
@one_eared_batman - I really like it, actually. =)
@buddy71 - It went well. I got one batch of antibiotics that I had a severe reaction to, so I switched over to new ones yesterday that I have to take every 8 hours. I'm getting there... slowly but surely. Still can't hear too well, but it's slowly getting better.
my sister wasn't a bridezilla, at least from what i could tell. the dress people really fucked her over though. first, it was the bridesmaids dresses. then the day of the wedding, wrong veil, then wrong dress. it was ridiculous. the wedding was actually fun. still surreal. i can't get over it.
why is it so evil? idk, i can't help my obsessions, they just happen. i love having other people to fangirl with. thats why i feel bad when i subject you to it. i check like 443 different sites a day for new pictures and news and stuff, thats what i meant. lol. after not playing whatthemovie for a while i felt so behind. i was like, nooo. must. solve. more. movies. ahah.
i didn't like confessions of a shopaholic. i expected way more romance. all we got was like a -2 seconds kiss that was crappy. i did watch he's just not that into you last night, and shh... i liked it. lol! scarlett johansson was sort of a whore, but she's so pretty! i love her. i still hate jennifer anniston though, idk why. i also watched this shit movie called "city of ember". i want to see too many movies too! i want to see public enemies, though supposedly its not doing too well with critics. who cares! did you see johnny depp in that trailer? god.
i didn't go to the wake. my cousins and aunt and uncle came here, and my aunt and uncle went with my mom and my cousins and i stayed at my house. i was too afraid to go. if my cousins didn't come to my house, i might have gone. but i don't think i could have handled it well. but then again it might have been no big deal. who knows. i feel lucky that i haven't had to go to one yet. and why is it called a "wake" anyway? thats just fucked up.
<3 Brandy
They want your young flesh. You need to be careful about revealing all the things that make you tingle on this blog. Especially down there.
i think im gonna go with the body wave. problem: i wanna buy my dad a new iphone
i think we need to do a phone chat today. BZ
@Lani_BAZAAR - Family first!
@BolshevikStorm - Someone has sex on zeh brain =p
oh shut up you whore! i was the one who said i wanted to see the proposal first! haha. and how do you know the twilight books are awful? you have not read them! I WILL END YOU.
there is only four books. and that bitch stephenie meyer is writing twilight from edward's point of view, and its called "midnight sun", but of course, since she's a huge bitch and all, she put it on hold because the first twelve chapters leaked on the internet. so now its on hold indefinitely or whatever. the first twelve chapters are on her website now, and of course i read them, and of course that bitch made it like crack, but like only half a fix or something. oh god it is almost unbearable how much i love those fucking books. i hated the first hp book, and the second one, i couldn't get past the first chapter. so there! but i do love the movies! honest!
i can't believe its all over. though i am glad it is. i was so nervous and frazzled. i just went through it hoping not to embarass myself, which of course i did. i think i said how i stepped on my dress hardcore while arm in arm with two douchebags who looked at me like i was on drugs... right?
i found the lead girl really annoying in 'he's just not that into you', but i thought it was the best pairing in the end, her and justin long. i thought drew barrymore's part was so useless. even though she ended up with that midget from entourage in the end. god, i am really judgemental. i don't give a fuck. the movie, though i liked it, just gave me anxiety. haha, i don't want to experience having to go through all that shit just to find out the guy is a big asshole or something. i need more movies to watch. i am addicted to downloading. i can't believe you want to see 'year one'. its soo... me, and not you, lol. i love jack black movies. i have a secret crush on sacha baron cohen, so you shh on that. but i like less bruno, and more really tall british guy.
i totally googled that shit, and apparently its called a "wake" because people used to stay up all night and watch the body. ugh, its just so creepy. i don't ever want to see a dead body. just the thought makes me want to cry. as much as i like gory shit, i like it because its all hollywood and not real life. and real life is just depressing and morbid. and i know i'll have to do it someday, but i just couldn't. i'm probably just building it up to be this huge thing and it might not have been so bad. but, whatever. i can't imagine someone i saw as a living, breathing person, who i've spoken to, lying in a coffin and lifeless. scares the shit out of me in so many ways.
i really like living in perfect fantasy la-la brandy land. i swear real life hasn't hit me yet, and thats the problem. i feel so immature right now, ahah. oh well, i'm tired. it sickens me that my younger cousin is talking about job interviews. i feel like a huge low-life. hah.
<3 Brandy
I guess I'm not pictureless and newbie enough to creep out in those categories, but gosh darn it I can't meet all the crazy requirements. ;)
I hate that too! Random footprints tend to give me anxiety. Completely know what you mean.
okay so how do you define "atrocious"? honestly, they aren't that bad. they can be a bit cheesy, but the story is very interesting. at least to me! and reading the book from edward's point of view was 3424232 times better. it really is interesting. boo. i really want you to read them now, though i know you'll never cross over to the sparkly side. haha! i've read a book of stephenie's that isn't twilight related, called "the host", and i think she's getting better at writing as she goes along. i swear i am so defensive about this shit, just ignore me, haha. i feel like its my child or something.
i love michael cera, but he like the same guy in every movie. i still can't get over "nick and norah's infinite playlist". it was so awkward and far from the book. the book was hilarious and sexy and great, and then in the movie you get this weird awkward fingering scene i cringed so hard at it hurt. the nick in the book and him playing nick in the movie are like, polar opposites. (shh i imagined rob when i read it). i think he's good at playing the like shy, funny guy who has great one-liners. but him trying to be romantic made me ill. i'd take jack black over him, short fat man and all.
i used to be unhealthily obsessed with the notebook. i mean, i even recorded it on a crappy old vhs tape and used to watch it a couple times a week. i still wish they were together in real life like they used to be. that was like my first experience of shipping people, haha.
i never really saw my aunt angie in the past few years. she used to babysit me. and her house smelled weird. she had an old dog with crud in his eyes and she made me and my brother only watch little kid shows. i still remember this one where this guy had like a black paintbrush, and he would paint stuff on a white wall and it would move and stuff, haha. but she would literally shove junk food in my face and let me use her computer. and her daughter lived across the street, so we got to use her underground pool. i don't even remember how long she used to babysit me for. all i know is i think i spoke to her on the phone a few months ago, not even. and its just weird to think that this person doesn't exist anymore. i'm scared its going to really hit home when someone closer to me dies, and i don't want to experience that, though i know i have to one day. whatever, i am so done talking about this. her funeral was today.
i don't want a job, though i know i need to get one, and soon. i hate growing up! though plenty of great things come with it. i am so immature, its sick.
<3 Brandy
I'm not sure about the whole "footprints" thing that xanga has set up. I look at it sometimes, but generally its not really that big of a deal to me. My site is completely open so anyone can access it, so I really don't mind who comes to look at it, even if it is one of those blank profiles.
Thinking about things though I do think some people are overboard with worrying who sees what. I mean after all it is the internet, and if someone doesn't want something seen by a bunch of people, they probably shouldn't have posted it online in the first place. There have been a few times I get some random visits from some person and I have no clue who they are, but it doesn't bother me, as I know my stuff it out in the open and anyone can view it.
I hope that you've been having a great week. Take care and I'll talk to you soon, bye for now.
Kyle